So, I had hoped that the next entry I wrote would be all about wonderful Thanksgiving vacation. While visiting Alana and Xander in Montreal was great, it is not the thing foremost in my mind and I'd be hard pressed to gush about it at the moment. I will post pictures and gush at a later date...
Right now, I'm very, very anxious. My mom went into the hospital last week. The doctors originally thought she might have a blocked artery and she was going to have a heart catheter. However, when she had a seizure on the way to her appointment it prompted a CAT scan that revealed lots of blood clots in her lungs. She spent almost a week in the hospital and was slowly recovering when she was discharged on Monday. Her positive progress took a bit of a turn when her blood oxygen levels dropped on Tuesday (apparently she was sent home without any oxygen, which she still needs until the remnants of the clots are completely out of her lungs).
It has been a stressful and tense week for the whole family. My dad and sister are doing their best to take care of mom, but there are going to have to be a LOT of changes and I don't think they will happen easily. I've been on edge because I'm so far away that getting home quickly isn't really an option. Also, being a bit of a control freak, it's hard for me to deal with getting all my information second hand. I want to be in the office asking the doctors questions in person. I don't know if it would make any difference in the outcome, but it would make me feel more useful. Instead, I nag over the phone.
On top of all that, I will probably be unemployed by the end of the month. For most of 2008 the department has been in flux and no one seems to know where I'm going to fit in the new structure. Now I have about 21 days left until my contract expires and I still have no idea what is going to happen. This has been incredibly frustrating for me because I really do enjoy what I do, I am kinda limited in other possible technical job opportunities because many of my technical skills are specific to this one system, and I seem to have noticed that the economy is not in the best of shape and there are not a whole lot of great jobs floating around out there.
While my general outlook about being unemployed has been fairly negative up till now, I'm trying to see one silver lining: I can go home for a few weeks to help my mom. But even that is a tarnished lining because it will make searching/interviewing for new jobs difficult, I'll be away from Ian and my friends in CT and will miss my Pumpkin. Ian says I've been focusing too much on the negative things in my life, but it feels like there are very few positive things to distract me right now. It's hard to stop and smell the roses when the garden is heaped with manure...
Enough whining, stay tuned for Thanksgiving photos!
2 comments:
I'm glad you came up here anyway and let us attempt to distract you for a few days. It was so nice having you here. We've been thinking about you a lot since you left, and we hope your mother recovers quickly.
Hey Skye, I am so sorry to here of your mom's health and your potential job loss. Just want you to know that you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. I wish there was something concrete I could do, I so would. Where is your family living these days? Are they still in Camden? If so, you know I have family that can look in on your mom for you and if you need a place to stay rent free on your way home so you don't have to drive the whole way, you can certainly stay with Nate and I. Hang in there. Meichell
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